Friday, April 17, 2009

If at first you don't succeed...

Well, I'm happy to report that I've been successful with the first of the CANs that I set for myself this week - I haven't set foot in a single coffee shop. So far, so good. The second one is proving to be much more difficult. By mid-morning the day after setting the goal for myself, I'd scarfed down some Easter chocolate at my desk with my (free) cup of tea.

And then I remembered my vow.

And the week sort of progressed in a similar fashion. The worse part was that one day I gave in to my solo cookie craving and gobbled up a couple of contraband biscuits all by my lonesome...and then a colleague brought (better) cookies into the office for everyone to share. But I felt obligated to decline, since I'd already indulged. If only I'd reminded myself of what I CAN do and resisted my initial craving, I'd have graciously accepted and enjoyed alongside everyone else.

Sigh. Why do I have to learn so many lessons over and over again?

Also, I spend a lot of time lately meditating on the idea that we have to do things differently if we want things to change. Yet humans seem to find so much comfort in familiarity and routine (myself included) that it can feel almost impossible to find the energy to break out of a habit.

Currently I'm in that strange limbo of life that precedes a vacation. Meaning that it's easy to bundle up everything I think I should be doing and file them all under the heading: Things to do after I go to New York. That list includes, but is not limited to, getting my gym schedule back on track, being more mindful of what I'm eating, pitching some more freelance stories, washing and ironing my spring/summer clothes, and cleaning the bathroom (but this one really can't wait much longer). What's weirder is that this limbo is coupled with a somewhat urgent belief that everything needs to be perfectly in its place before I can leave my everyday life behind for four days.

Basically, I might be crazy.

But at least I will be in NYC this time next week!

Here's some internet stuff for you guys to look at. Check out these amazing photos. So clever. (Oh, and click on the photographers name for a little chuckle.) Learn a little more about rhubarb care of Homemakers and yours truly. And here's a little profile of me done by my alma mater.

1 comment:

Arlene said...

LOVE those photos.

FABULOUS article about you.

And what is it with women and how we have to clean and organize our living spaces before we leave on vacation??? It's the most bizarre thing EVER, isn't it???

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